Oh Diabetes! Oh why please tell me why!!

   Hey everyone!! It’s been forever I’ve been around here, in this neighborhood! How are you doing today? How are you really doing…

  Me? I’m doing okay managing and fighting Diabetes as always, just like you. There’s days where I just want to give it up, and not deal with diabetes at all. There’s times when I just want to tell Diabetes, ‘you know what son of a gun?? Why don’t you shove it up your behind and take care of your self and leave me alone!’ But I don’t because, I want to see, talk, walk my dog. Because he’s not going to know why I’m gone, or why I don’t walk him, and give him kisses and such. Because I want to see my mom, talk to her, argue with her, tell her I love her, and most of all!! I don’t want to make her suffer, because I didn’t take care of my self. She worries about me specially when my blood sugars go so low, it’s stupendously ridiculous to get it to go up some days. It’s so stubborn it won’t go up other days it gets ridiculously high! It won’t go down no matter how much insulin I shoot up.

  There’s days when it’s so perfect! It’s the most perfect line on the Dexcom! I want to party hard! That’s just some of the many reasons why I take care of it. As well because I don’t want to hear the “Why didn’t you ever care for your self!” Until they find out how difficult it is to deal with diabetes and how stupid it is day to day, 24/7/365. It is exhausting, overwhelming, mentally and physically and emotionally, difficult to deal with it, now living with it?? I’ve been doing this shit over 30yrs, I’ve lost so much sleep, I’ve cried, screamed, gotten angry on the why did it had to me! And not someone else, why me the fuck me!! And not the person who hunted that one child! But then I think about it and say to my self, ‘why the hell mot me!!’ I’ve dealt with Diabetes for so long! I may be able to help someone else that just got diagnosed with the ‘betes, I may be able to give them pointers how they can manage it, help that little kid, teenage, or even adult how they can. Even help that someone that knows a someone or a family member or friend who knows a friend, how they can help them. 

 I wear my Dwxcom and Insulin Pump, out in the open visible, and I’ve had many people ask me what it is and what is for. And I explain what’s it for and what it helps with and such. I like it when people ask me, I’ve even had other Type Ones flag their flags out, and giving the ‘hey look me to!! Now where besties! Hell yeah!!’ And I love it!

               Yours truly 

                                     VENUZHEY!