Hey everyone! I know is been such a long time I have been here...anyway! Lately with my blood sugars has been crazy! With the ups and downs and everything else in between. But anyway lately I have read many good articles about diabetes and what other new devises are coming out and what not. Which is great don't give me wrong, another "great" device coming out for Diabetes and people with Diabetes and what not awesome. But why is it that every five years or so there is always a new devise coming out rather than coming out with a damn fucking cure for the fucking diabetes! Every single person with diabetes has been waiting for a damn cure but all we get is just another retarded devise that will apparently will help us so little for so much money. Diabetes supplies and everything else are too costly and damn expensive. I can barely afford a bottle of 100 strips, a couple of insulin pens, the pen needles and any extra shit that needs to go a long with this other shit that I bought just to keep my dang self alive for another few hours or so. So why is it that companies are coming with new devises that are going to be twice as expensive as the last two that came out just 3 months ago.
Why is it that we cannot get a fucking cure, like the cancer patines, I mean I do not have nothing against them at all whatsoever, but some of them have it easy that they get cured and in hopes to be cancer free and live an awesome cancer free life, or any other chronic deseases that do have a cure. So why cant we diabetics have a fucking cure that will make us diabetic free for few days, months years or whatever the fuck. Why cannot we have that at all. So to you all that are not diabetic, and that are ignorant and stupid about diabetes and that do not understand diabetes at all. Do you ever know what it is like to have to be strong enough for this shit?? Do you know what is like to be worried about what your next blood sugar level will be?? To have to be worried if you even will wake up the next morning, or even make it out of a low or high?? do you know how it feels like when someone tells you how you should handle your shit and not even know what is like to have it?? Do you even think it is easy that easy to have diabetes like you think it is?? No you do not, you do not even know how much money is waisted on something we only use once for a blood sugar test, for one injection, for one anything. Having to worry if we will have money for one more strip, for one more needle, for one more anything.
There is times our fingers don't even want to bleed, and are so damn sore for pricking way to many times a day. Diabetes IS a damn job we do not get paid for, nor get vacations from, where we get nothing but stress and worry about our next purchase for our shit we need to use to treat this damn thing and keep our selves alive for the next time we have to prick a finger to the next blood glucose test.
Yes I am fighting a battle that no one knows about, I am strong enough to handle this shit, to be alive to give my family and boyfriend a hard time. I do not give up because I have a cat to take care of and a family that loves me and would hate to see me gone and not be around to argue with anymore.
Diabetes is a difficult thing to deal with on a daily basis.
Jupiter<3
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