Hey guys!! Long talk no talk I am so unsure how I let this long go by without talking to you all not even a stinking update. Did not think anyone read any of my blogs in regard to diabetes at least my own experiences with it. But anyway.....there has been in some way many exiting things going on and others that have not been that exiting in the least.
Over the last few weeks though not recently, my mom has had to call the ambulance for me. I have had few too many extreme low blood sugars that I have had seizures to go with them. It has not been fun on the least. I am not sure what has been causing that. I have not been or felt stressed on the least. Not as far as I know, though one the last Saturday of last month she called because in her words 'I was hitting her, spitting at her as well as making the motion as if I were to almost vomit' she also said I had no clothes on. Mind you I have no recollection of any of this. There are maybe one or two things I remember from the whole thing. One thing I do remember is waking up and being awake was me crying to myself and telling myself 'I am not crazy' over and over, the nurses and even the security guard looked at me with such worry and telling me that they were in such worry for me and thought I was a danger for myself and others. I never thought I ever would hear those words from anyone.
Yes, I am seeing a psychiatrist, I as well am taking medication for PTSD/Bipolar Depression and Anxiety/Insomnia, along with insulin and of course checking my blood sugar as often as possible. I started doing so seeing a psychiatrist and therapist, for one I needed help with past trauma I never really got help for, and never really knew how to deal with it. All of that trauma I never got help for weas messing with my diabetes, blood sugar and my mental health in general. In part I did not know how to be human, I started to withdraw from the world, sleeping all day and not even wanting to eat anything at all. I was in a bad space mentally for quite a few years. The relationships between me and my mom and my sister and I were not that great. I was just not me for a lack of better words.
I feel a bit more myself now that I am seeking help for my mental help and now the relation between my mom, my sister and I is getting better little by little. Even my diabetes is getting better except for the low blood sugars that I have here and there. The lows that come with seizures the ones that come during I am asleep are the ones that scare me. The ones with seizures, those are the ones that scare me so much.
